It is moving forward with your head held high, even if your heart is low.
It is accepting what can not be, even if you struggle to understand why.
It isn’t that you don’t love them enough to fight for the relationship.
It is loving yourself more, and knowing when to end the battle for what once was.
It is forgiving the other person, and more importantly, yourself.
It is forgetting the fear of them finding someone else because you will do the same in time.
It is finding the strength to cut ties, no matter how difficult life may seem without them in it.
It is placing space between you and them in order for feelings to fade and hearts to heal.
It is pulling away when you would rather push your way back into their hearts and into a relationship.
It is properly balancing the good and the bad, and seeing which truly outweighed the other.
It is realizing how much emphasis you placed on the “good” to convince your friends, your family, and ultimately yourself, that it was right.
It is realizing they were not the right one, no matter how much you tried to turn a blind eye to it.
It is not feeling remorseful, but all the wiser for this realization.
It is being thankful for learning lessons that you once saw as mere mistakes, whether on your part or theirs.
It is not questioning what you did wrong because there are two people in every relationship.
It is knowing that you were enough, and that someday the right one will see you as more than enough.
It is hugging yourself when you are weak, and praising yourself when you are strong.
It is crying. A lot.
It is allowing yourself time to mend.
It is opening up your heart again, even if you are fearful.
It is realizing you are going to be okay.
Now, I am no expert on the matter. We all love in our own ways. We all feel in our own ways. We all move on in our own ways. That’s what is beautiful about relationships, even in their demise. But if I could ease the breaking of your heart by just a little, then sharing was well worth it.
her real life wasn’t enough. or it was too much. either way, she needed to evade. even for only a handful of moments. so she did. she disappeared. not literally, not entirely. she watched from above. disconnected. her body flowing through the familiar motions. her emotions sitting still with their aerial view. not judging. not really feeling. she just watched, observed. gathered. she went elsewhere in her mind. she needed out. for a little while. she would be back. almost like she never left. almost. but for now, she needed to go.
I want to build something. Something great. Something memorable. I want it to last forever. To outlast everything, even us. I want it to be hand-made, from bits of me and you. The good and the bad. The truth of what we have, however immeasurable and uncapturable it may be. Ill build it out of chords, not brick. To extract the proper fondness and feelings. And because chords can better speak to what we have here. And because, this way, our passion may live forever on the tongues of those who’ve learned our song. A song that will still be sung long after the bricks have crumbled. A song that will inspire even the loneliest of souls to hold on and hope for even a fraction of what we have. I want to build it to remember. To record. To prove that it existed. Just in case. Just in case we are the only ones.
When you find a man
Every part of you
Who makes each one of your hairs
Into a poem,
When you find a man,
As I am
Of bathing and adorning you
I will beg you
To follow him without hesitation,
It is not important
That you belong to me or him
But that you belong to poetry.
by Nizar Qabbani
1. Taking responsibility can feel very liberating.
2. Just get up and get out.
3. Sometimes things do go my way.
4. I am the napping champion.
5. A glass of wine can sometimes cure all.No most of the time.
6. Sometimes doing whats best for others and not just yourself REALLY is what’s B E S T.
7. I miss painting. & school. More than anyone will ever know.
8. Heart > Gut. It’s the better choice.For now at least.
9. Laughing is most definitely my favorite thing in the whole world.
10. I am falling deeply, madly, in love. & this time it feels the most real and the hardest to explain.